~Pride-less Day....Saddest Day

My pride is like this basketball

2 days ago, I'm a guy that play basketball not so well, preparing for a basketball friendly match with another school......In fact, that is the most important match till now, a revenging match from the last time...which we have lost 2 points.....However, I use a hard time in begging my mum, training hard for 2 weeks, talking about players and strategy with friends.....end up, THE FUCKING GUY DUN ALLOW ME TO PLAY!.....

I know i'm a weak player, I know....but I deserve a chance to to my bit in the team....even a reserved player deserve to play, or not how can he prove he CAN?....This is the fucking attitude of that guy....he said he will let me in at the third quarter, end up another late guy came in and grab my chance....he is a better player, and a better friend of his....then he say if we r not losing, then he will let me play..SO WAD....IF I PLAY DEFINITELY WILL LET U ALL LOSE?!?! WAD THE FUCK.....ok nvm, he say I will be playing for the final 30 seconds....and end he din fulfill it.....thats a TIE at the final points 50-50....we have an extra 5 mins and I still didn't given a chance to play for the team....never will prove anything of myself...I gave up begging...I sit there till the match ends 52-55....we lost...

But its useless I tell him I din play and they lose...cause he will scold me if I play, we will lose more points....thats how arrogant is he....too proud of himself...without thinking other people's feeling...YA he is the BEST in the team, without him, there is no more team...but why do we need a guy such feeling-less to be in the team?...proud of himself till no one will be in his way?....I dunno...what I know is....I need revenge, revenge on my lost pride, revenge on how he treat me as his friend, maybe not anymore.......I must take him down in the basketball court and prove he is not the best anymore....I will do it in the meanest time...MEANEST TIME....You...XIAN JIE.....I mentioned your name and u should be proud of u r the best player in the team..which sucks enough to treat me like that....I will make u pay for wad u did to me....I want you to lost your pride, for a better heart...wad i'm going to do to you, is good for you..HATE ME