This Year, Things I succeed ~ Thing I failed

Days gone by.......

This will be the final post in 2011...Today December 31 I will do it right just like last year...Its been a hard year too this year compare to 2010....This year I faced much more threat and challenge from the natural phenomenon in a teenager's life...friends betrayal, friends hurting, pride losing, friend making, quarrels, back together, love her, struggle to let her go...ya all this is very hard...even improving in basketball is hard for me now..blur in the situation and dunno wad should I do....So...here is it...

If you click this link, you can know wad I did last year and try comparing it with this year's if you have time doing so =D http://www.rayder-no-chikara.blogspot.com/2010/12/good-bye-ing-with-2010in-4-hours-more-d.html

Looks like the only thing I promised is not to be a faker.....ya...I succeed in not becoming a faker after all...Yeah!

In 2011 I've

1. Get bad result in all subject in all exam

2. Failed my Add math exam

3. Finally fail to control my bad temper

4. Make my parent and family member not satisfied about me

5. Lost an important friend, (friend...you dunno you are not my friend anymore)

6. Gain 2 very special friend when i'm sad...(know them un-purposely) Catherine and Jaywin 

7. Being humiliate by a friend but he make me more eager to succeed (shit him...and thanks him)

8. Being left by a friend but now is trying hard to get him back..(I will do it)

9. Train basketball and trying to improve

10. First time stay late till 5am not yet asleep

11. Get to take money from the atm machine..my own atm card ^_^

12. Gone for Lepak and dun stay in class

13. Text message spent about RM70 a month

14. Happiest moment is 11/11/11 with ( Jonathan, Laura, Kenneth and Huey Jwen )

15. Use the most yeng idea to give her her present =D

16. Face cruelty of love relationship ( 2 of my friend becoming single )

17. Final exam with not so good result..almost lost to a 5. friend ( if u understand wad i meant 5 here)

18. Her to be with other guy and not choosing me

19. grown taller by maybe 2-3 cm...still far away from 170..must work hard!

20. Love my family member more deeply cause they give me some memorable moment this year!

21. Took alot picture for memoir of passed things...

22. Gone for vacation with family include my favorite aunty ( she is very strict type but i love that )

23. Learnt that reality is very cruel but have to face it with bravery!

24. Never trust people that u doubt the real-ness

25. Forgiving all the time will make you someone who dun dare to fight back

26. End 2011 still single and hate it...( but how?..no girl 1 me )

27. Love Japanese thing alot more..digimon is COOL!

28. Still got people who care for me

29. Suffered from some lung disease and health level decrease

30. GONE THROUGH HAPPINESS, SORROW, NERVOUS, SCARE, PROBLEMS AND SOLUTION

2012 Resolution

1. I will study well and get good result...I must not disappoint my parents anymore!

2. I must train well in basketball...I must not let people look down on me anymore!

3. I must sleep well....I must do so to get good health..good growth!

4. I must not influence by love love matter...so my life won't ruin by that

5. I must save money and dun use too much of it....so people won't think im just a useless ppl only know spending money

6. I must grow taller....make it 7 more cm at least...!

7, I must be the best in something i;m now well in....to prove improvement!

DONE...finally done this in like 1 hour...now I can take a rest and wait for 2012....hey no...wait...I still need to clean my room before my parent came home..damn..ok..See ya all in 2012!

2011 Winter Solstice ~

Cute me?...This year is kamen rider style!

Winter Solstice just passed about a week..sorry for the late post, check this out...this year I have some new things for my visitors!....Every year me and mum will make these glutinous rice ball to celebrate the winter solstice.....it is a superstition I think.....making the family member stay together forever...or mum say its a chinese Christmas....blurred....anyway....this a short post...2012 is just a few hours away...perhaps...this is my second last post of the year....PEACE!

Kamen Rider's Death...ya..they've been cooked!

Plush Toys In My House...CUTE!

From Left : Pastaman, Beary, Lulu, Torthoise, Peace, Meowy, Kinky

Hey all....you all will laugh if you all know I'm 16 age boy now in 2011..end of 2011 ya....These are not all my possession...some of it are my sister's one...Let me introduce them one by one..just too bored so have to post something lame up here..haha..enjoy!

Pastaman : Age 2+, cute and soft with a sense of funny in his body because it weird to have the head bigger than the body and have it all colored up yellow and orange...he is my sister's birthday present from a close friend

Lulu : Age 7++, Australian made kangaroo with a little baby in the pouch...this plush is bought by dad when he is outstation at Australia...This is the first plush of my sis XD

Beary : Age 2+, Age same with Pastaman cause he is also a birthday present from a friend of my sis on her birthday...This bear is high quality made base on the smooth short fur....

Torthoise: Age 4+, I asked my sister to buy it for a friend's birthday present...she bought 2 so 1 is given to my friend Deborah as birthday present and this 1 I keep it as companion during sleep...haha, this cute little thing often gone missing under the bed...

Peace : Age 1+, he is redeemed from Jusco using points of something i think....his blue shirt can be taken off and show his furry body...his brown color show him genuinely a a grizzly!..haha

Meowy: Age 2+, This is also my sister's birthday present from her friend..This is a Siamese cat I think, has a color changing white and brown fur....and a blue brown eye..this cat is hot..LOL...female 1 i guess...

Kinky : Age 8+, This dog...ya he is very special...now I'm 16...my dad brought this from USA when i'm 5 or 7 years old forget d....my dad is out to Boston 2 month and he called back say this shop need to keep a record of who bought this plush dog and name...so i'm too young to name his anything so i simply say kinky...haha....now it still with me...most precious =)

Everyone have a precious plush toy or just some toys...today I shared those exist under the roof....perhaps u will share yours too..!

Specially Made for Whitey!

Who is this?

Yo....long time din update my blog already..I guess is 2 weeks have it?...before 2012 I promised to update at least 4 blogpost...hope I can make it...this is the first one!

Who is HE?...He is my cat...he is now 1 years old and its his happy birthday dunno when....he is a stray cat that follow my mum home after her morning jog...he is pure white and very fast love by my family...We all agree name him WHITEY!

Whitey is very funny...erm how to say leh?....he like to sleep....specially my dad's big tummy...best spot!..next is on the plastic bag..( maybe he love the sha' sha' sound).....he really do well in the house, walk up and down finding my dad...his dad too =D....sometimes jump up the computer table and play with the keyboard....(wonder why he dun play with the MOUSE)....the sometimes jump out to the balcony to enjoy scenery of sunset...haha

Ya love him so much...now he is too close with us...even my aunty start dun like cats...now she is ok in his existence...He have a weird habit....he like to buried poo for other cats and sometimes smell their butt if they have just get things out of it....XD.....He also love to catch lizard at night and play with things which moves very quickly...

Recently he is hurt by other cat in the eye and look serious until i've cried out...Now the left eye still swollen...I thought its blinded..LOL....

Thats all I can talk bout my cat...I will keep his life updated here from time to time..So...MEOW !

Alright..time to yawn and get some sleep...Ja...MEOW!

~Thanks, My Family~

Awesome plastic bag =D

After that painful moment...I went to Bukit Tinggi Jusco with my family...They know i'm very sad....so they allow me to buy my favorite things, eat my favorite food, do my favorite things there.....Love my whole family care for me so much....specially my sister, she ask me treat her Mcdonald's.....cause I din eat lunch so I have a late one with her...Ah....now Im blur if Im still sad or not.....Spend happy time with my family....CHERISH!

Unpacked...I Love it! ^_^

Thanks, Appreciation, Love, Cherish <3

~Pride-less Day....Saddest Day

My pride is like this basketball

2 days ago, I'm a guy that play basketball not so well, preparing for a basketball friendly match with another school......In fact, that is the most important match till now, a revenging match from the last time...which we have lost 2 points.....However, I use a hard time in begging my mum, training hard for 2 weeks, talking about players and strategy with friends.....end up, THE FUCKING GUY DUN ALLOW ME TO PLAY!.....

I know i'm a weak player, I know....but I deserve a chance to to my bit in the team....even a reserved player deserve to play, or not how can he prove he CAN?....This is the fucking attitude of that guy....he said he will let me in at the third quarter, end up another late guy came in and grab my chance....he is a better player, and a better friend of his....then he say if we r not losing, then he will let me play..SO WAD....IF I PLAY DEFINITELY WILL LET U ALL LOSE?!?! WAD THE FUCK.....ok nvm, he say I will be playing for the final 30 seconds....and end he din fulfill it.....thats a TIE at the final points 50-50....we have an extra 5 mins and I still didn't given a chance to play for the team....never will prove anything of myself...I gave up begging...I sit there till the match ends 52-55....we lost...

But its useless I tell him I din play and they lose...cause he will scold me if I play, we will lose more points....thats how arrogant is he....too proud of himself...without thinking other people's feeling...YA he is the BEST in the team, without him, there is no more team...but why do we need a guy such feeling-less to be in the team?...proud of himself till no one will be in his way?....I dunno...what I know is....I need revenge, revenge on my lost pride, revenge on how he treat me as his friend, maybe not anymore.......I must take him down in the basketball court and prove he is not the best anymore....I will do it in the meanest time...MEANEST TIME....You...XIAN JIE.....I mentioned your name and u should be proud of u r the best player in the team..which sucks enough to treat me like that....I will make u pay for wad u did to me....I want you to lost your pride, for a better heart...wad i'm going to do to you, is good for you..HATE ME

Everything is Getting WORST

DEPRESSED

This is the week that hurts a lot......

1st thing, I lost in a contest big a slight votes just because lied by friends......2nd, doesn't get my attention from her and doesn't know why hurts a lot.....3rd, can't improve in basketball but train so hard, spending time thinking why and can't control the rage is killing me!..4th, parent is not understanding everything i suffered and forbidden me to play basketball, ask me study more at home...I cannot stop myself anymore....I will beg for a little bit more freedom from them....5th, I need someone who really understand about me to care for me...not people who just listen and give suck advise or even just don't bother about my feelings....

Now, everything I can do is train basketball....only training will give me the happiness i need to regain my strength, or not i'll just sleep at home and energy-less......and I also dunno why...I just want to go outside and tires myself....in1 second I can forget about everything except concentrating to do my best.....but now, even the best thing I can do I cannot do it well.....My brain is killing me and I can't sleep, now is 5 in the morning...sun is coming out soon, i'm playing basketball again >.<