~Another End...Another Beginning

Beginning of another era...CLIMBING!

So fast this blog already 3 years old, there's already 3 year end post but this year will be a different one...Because this year and next year gonna be a big change so I want to make this special...I finished form 5 this year and I'm still deciding where is my future route, where should I go or where should I start....I doubted myself...but it won't be long...I will figure out something later...

Things I plan to accomplish in 2013
1. I will earn some money for the family...
2. I will go for further education....sure about it!
3. I will play my style of basketball....not following others
4. I have to grow taller...or not I won't be happy and always depressed
5. I will get a girlfriend maybe...in case...XD
6. I want to be a more respectable person...leader type
7. I want to improve myself in skills like my dad, the expert in repairing anything...
8. I want to keep cooking...I interest in making wonderful dishes =D
9. Sleep earlier at night...duwan to stress out myself
10. Maintain a healthy lifestyle....long to go - my life
11. make this blog famous....improve my writing
12. maybe taking British Council...improve my English!!
13. Getting my license....I must ready to take the first exam
14. get more friends, increase my popularity?...no, just want to live with a larger society
15. Be mature....be like a real adult...i'm quite the oldest among those who are my year...XD
16. Do good things to others...help more, gain more
17.....lastly, stay alive lo...must! XD

Actually next year is more to improving and not creating anything new, my horoscope says Aquarians should maintain on their own track and stay in style....sometimes, remain same is better than changing into something different.....but small and slight change is unavoidable....I think I will take on that advice.....

Very fast 2012 is going to end in less than 8 hours, countdown and yelling to everyone Happy New Year is for sure....but actually 1 year gone by 1 year, doing the same things all over again is sick...that is why we should gain more experience so that the other year will be different...more special....

Thanks to all the way supporting me, my parents and my sisters....thanks to always give me hope, my friend William, Jonathan, CiLit, XJ, Laura, RuShi, Josh, Kat, ZhiWei, CK, Natalie, Ashraf, Shukery, Yuki, all my librarians friends, all my classmate, all 5sc2 mates and many many more....dun jealous if your name is not mention...just their names are easier to memorise..XD

Next year I will be a different me, a better me.....just make sure everything goes well, then nothing will be wrong...(nothing wrong sure correct la = ='')

Always FIGHTING (2012/2013),
Rayson

Will always update this blog with 2013 everything, be sure to check it here and check it on facebook...I will always share my feelings...no matter happy or sad =) http://www.rayer-no-chikara.blogspot.com  <SIGNING OFF>

Librarian's Feast 2012

Today is our librarian jamuan day...it suppose to be a very very happy day....but it turn out to be more happier than that...so I have no comment about my feelings now XD.....Quite lazy to write about it as i need to complete my 2012 summary tonight too...here are some snap shot about today....ENJOY!
And oh.....today also met Xiao Ying....my primary school sister there....Its quite fate coz we met there..maybe at the same spot 2 times d..XD

Watched this movie with Emay, Teen and Richard

A snap shot of me...making it profile pic!

Play Uno at Mcd early in the morning = =''

This Clown bully KaiQi 99!

CHEF...I need FOOD!

FOOD...ok ok la

Quite fresh de seafood

Desserts!

Red Green puppy balloon!

We call this oyster?...or mussel...

Real 1...=-=''

All types of meat salad...NICE!

Weird food ( not in buffet)

Merry Christmas 2012

Sunway Pyramid's Main Hall

Yeah...finally Christmas d =).....but Its not like I'll be celebrating it cause you know...its just a day where..nah I dunno la...
Just now went Sunway Pyramid to have dinner and shopping....so took some picture to update my blog...

ME at Ichiban Ramen

Dinner at Ichiban Ramen...the food is quite good there..first time try, its not too expensive also...Rayson's Recommendation!

Just MY reflection XD

Many Choices!

Went to NewZealand Natural to have the ice-cream...its not too expensive also...and its chocolate is really really delicious!!

Threesome...2 more not in pic..XD

We choose the choice of the day Choco Chip Vanila....for monday XD for the other days...

Just CHOOSE!

Jingle Bell...Jingle Bell....Good X'mas night to everyone...have a good day later =)

Santa Boy,
Rayson

I Trust You...Dun Let Me Down, Rayson

Finally its proven my friend didn't lie to me...He asked me to go for the interview next Wednesday...Thank you for letting myself staying myself.1 problem solve... =)

Back to the topic for today...its about basketball but its more to friendship though...
There are two friend...1 is quite arrogant but lately hes been a better person, he smiles alot during the match and quite friendly to me...but he is still a dumbass though...(I din mean it)...I feel like at least he makes an effort to play better, not in skills but in comrade-ship....he finally have it....still remember he humiliate me few months ago by not letting me enter a match but asked me to participate...it really flares me up and I still remember it deeply...but at least he taught me something....If you are not a better player...you will just asked to sit aside...but it passed for a long time so I better dun let it bothers me...anyhow...XJ is really a dumb but good guy...
EJ is another story, he is a realy pro table tennis player since primary school and now is very famous already....he started basketball 1 year ago and now is the best player at our court....of course better than me and I dun like it but wad I want to talk about is his personality...
XJ and EJ is on loggerhead...and I dun think they will be any good in the nearest future...its time for me to choose a side...I know XJ is not so good in emotions and flares up most of the people at the court....the other side EJ is a good player on court and many ppl likes him and train with him....But I know that XJ is just a bad person at the outside but inside, he still a god guy which I really mean it...Yesterday after the basketball game I followed the EJ's gang to a stall for a drink...He talks bad about XJ and all sort of things...he feels like he is the best player and give lecture to all of us there, there I realize ZH another guy is just a double faced bastard....but its alright...everyone wish to climb higher right...EJ give me advice on many things which I know I'm doing wrong too, but he is saying everything like he is perfect and ya definitely his skills is perfect but how does his personality looks...AWFUL....he is just another pathetic guy with good skills but bad personality....ya he is good in the outside..but inside I'm sure its different...talk about respecting other people...he definitely dun have it....
I've made my decision to continue be close with XJ..I believe I can be a much more true friend with XJ even he is just a slightly to a jerk but at least he treats people he likes nicely and people he din like badly....AT LEAST....dun be a bastard to talk bad behind people and dun try to insult my friends u EJ....just try changing urself....This is why I rather playing with people with moderate skills but have good personality than people with superb skills but just lack of the respect...You are just another charmless guy if you are so proud of yourself...no matter how you improve, you already think you are the best...I will surpass you EJ...I definitely will, but I will not be like you, I will be a better person after that....Take That

Protecting wad is correct,
Rayder

~The Helpless Moment~

This week have been a tough week for me...there's 3 things that really almost make me change....luckily I didn't..

Take 1
I've been to the education fair to look for information about what I should study in the future...when I almost make my decision, I face another crisis....my family cannot actually afford a college for me and how will my family's finance be when I reach a private university...I am taken back and reconsider...at last, i'm forced to choose the choice...my last choice form 6...I dunno why I dun like form 6 so much...before this i look up on my sister who manage to study quite well, after a friend start to convince me with college studies...I start to look forward to be in a college...it just one step ahead and i'm pulled down...it feels like a dream being broken into pieces...maybe I shouldn't dream at all...after all, I always face reality....dreaming is not ME

Take 2
My parents asked me not to waste my 5 month long holiday after I decided to pursuit form 6...I really hope I can stay still as whenever I saw advertisement about college university, pre-u programme...I have a hard time to stabilize my mood...haiz, my parents asked me to go find for a job just to get experience and hardship of working...I asked 2 friends who have been working to help me with it and they say there still place at their working place which is famous among us friends..so I decide to take it, they say they will help me with the register and will contact me if there's anything I need 2 do...I really believe them so much I let them to process everything as i'm so inexperience...after a few days...I only met them at the basketball court, when I try to contact them, I cant get them to tell me how the progress going on...Nate, I dun hope u r right...I really hope they are my friends...you advised me not to believe them too much...always rely on myself...maybe u are right...but I really dun hope so...still, I hope to get my job and dun wanna lose this friendship

Take 3
I have a friend who I like very much...of course she is a female...she is a cosplayer, before she is being popular* we are really close, we have so much topics and love to crap around....since she begin to raise her fame, I felt like a company...no...not even a company...not even worth to hold her bags and stand by her side....I also dunno where is this overwhelming feel came from but I just feel like i'm more tiny than ever...Now I feel cosplayer are some god to be worship and we the person who like the cosplayer act as a worshipper...as they raise their popularity, we are still the same...If only I can cosplay...but i'm not allow, cosplaying require money...and I dunno how people say its not a waste of money to do something u interested...somehow, I am so far away from her now..doesn't chat too much with her even I know she is online...not we are out of topic...is i'm out of her topic as well...

In the end, these really ruin my week..I think its ruining my entire month as well...I dunno how to face people...particularly THEM....I did not talk bad about them at the back...I also can't just go to their face to tell them...I dun want them to hate me as this is my problem...solely..., but I'm just a normal person....and I never able to withstand things so easily..I have to express it to something or someone...but now, I just can't believe anyone...even my sister peek into my facebook a moment ago....haiz...I dun normally hate someone for doing something bad to me....I just laugh and say 'its alright' as it doesn't hurt me physically and our friendship....mentally its contributing to the injury....I dunno what else to say....today I suppose to post something relate to something I planned to do but I dun think it suits my feeling now...I also suppose to start writing this year's summary and 2013's resolution, but I bet I will do it later....I dun wan to conclude 2012 with unhappy feelings....I feel like there's a revengeful urge in myself now...I just want to be the dumb dumb 'its alright' guy even friends asked me not to trust people easily or ask me dun be so childish...its alright...I just want the friendship remains...

Few Times Desperator,
Rayson

My Driving License - My first thing with the society

2012 version driving reference?..

Registered on 7 Dec at noon....my first time in the driving centre...and I was nervous as my friend told me the guy in there is hot headed....I'm invite in by a soft Malay guy...(i gonna bang my friend d)..
I run through the procedure and he asked me to wait outside here on 12 December..ya yesterday...thats the date where i'm going to listen to the rules...rules of the road,car or everything related to making me driving on the road! XD....

SO the morning after styling my hair and putting on the best attire..(coz another friend told me there was pretty girls there..hehe..) so I walk out and saw John at the centre waiting...(it just a 200m my house away from the driving centre..LOL) so I walk closer by and that dumb guy called me to see whether its me or not...really =_=''...
A guy name Andy asked us to board his car...he is going to send us ( I mean Me, John, Ci Lit and See Sing) to the place...a place to listen to the driving rules and also a place to learn how 2 drive...and it was really an adventure going there....Mr.Andy is driving like my character in NFS where...u know...haha..never be lower than 100mph....wow....and it was a bumpy ride coz we r going into some sort of industrial park...(place with alot of metal, metal and metal)...I think we are in Klang...Sri Muda or maybe Kota Kemuning area...
it was alright..we survive dun we..hehe..

After we registered we walk into the room and SKIP...SKIP...SKIP...they said we are going to start at 9 and end up we starting 40mins late...ok...nevermind and we were given a short break at 12 noon...the food was delicious I think but I never get to try...they dun fry enough chicken until my turn so I din get to buy some....so end up I have my own bread >.<..luckily I din buy the food as it was so expensive!!!!
After the break we listened to the bla bla bla until 3 and we are allowed to leave...We get a read card almost the size of our IC and thats like a kuota card...(u must listen to sufficient amount of time of the rules) before you are allow to drive?..i think so...It was a safer ride home...haha..he din drive too fast there...it was raining and I ran home from the centre...it was a new experience to be share...new one definitely!

In the end...there are no pretty girls in the room....but thats was my luck on that day...but then...stillhappy 12/12/12...bye!

SPM = Ended...

SPM Slip...

SPM ended for just more than a week and I really happy about that...but dunno why it seems that time is passing too slow and i'm not as living myself to the fullest like i've been during SPM...maybe its because the sudden relaxation after the killing exam...
Now everyday also on facebook, go for basketball and sometimes will check out some information about further studies and now having my driving lesson...
About the driving lesson, it runs pretty well but I still nervous about the driving rules test as its still require memorisation and understanding...working hard on it now and exam is due next thursday or friday..
My friend have a job offer for me and I seems to be a little bit timid to accept the offer due to I have to go over an interview before getting the job...I dun like to be interview or it looks like a police interrogation to me...maybe I used to work alone and doesn't like to socialize with other people...I will try my best but I will be brave to pick up the phone and call first..we will see if I get the job or not...but for now..driving license is still main prior...
I will try to use my holidays as worthful as possible as I dun want to waste my precious time just to worry this and worry that or merely online at facebook....I want this long holiday to have a price listed...a price where I can get all sort of experience I never tried before..experience that can be share with friends and let them shock!
So....thats much for this time...I hope my SPM result will be like wad I always wanted....I took 11 subjects and hope to get at least 7As and the other B...NO C PLEASE!....
CYA...