I Understand Because I've Been Through

              He told me both of them have break....or seperated...not couple anymore...he say he is very sad...he say so cause is the girl who speak out first I think....he cried...he is my best brother and he cried...I feel its so unfair for him to cry....how can the girl be so cruel?...With words they can just end everything?...I still unsure about all this..but I think is true...
              Until today I saw her post...'Our life is just like a story book, 'Love' is just a chapter of it'.....I know it is true....and I feel like...she is also not is a good mood....depression I mean....starting I just feel that it is not fair to my best brother with her act...but I dunno if she is sad to end this too...even though I heard all from the guy...but I feel that the guy is just sad....the girl is pure sorrow...the guy sad..I sad...the girl sad...I cry for her...
              Why?...because I felt more pain in her online post rather than the words the guy told me...He words show she had already lost hope?...He don't deserver her....Theres another guy who been by her so long...understand everything...passing through all those fear of losing her and lost her to him....love makes him strong...stronger than before...mentally...he now don't scare of anything....he don't scare of losing her once more...he don't scare of her saying 'I don't like you' to him....he even don't scare of the girl be with other guy starting another spark...he just scare that all these things will make the girl sad again...he scare someone which the girl be with for second time will hurt her again...he scare the guy who will be saying 'I love you' to her is just pure saying it and not doing it....he scare the girl will again saying 'I dun like you' to another guy....which end up hurting the another him again....
              However...he doesn't know if he should have hope on that girl...because the girl seems to have lost hope towards Love...he doesn't know if he should once again 'Time to get her back'..... he is in doubt of it....Till now...he just love her...ya..love her...looking at her together other guy, seeing her so close with other guy, smile and laugh with other guy....he is appreciate that the other guy treated her so good and he is happy to let the girl go....hoping the girl just to laugh and smile everyday....he knows everything, the other guy know he knows everything, the girl know he knows everything, he knows the other guy and the girl know he knows everything...but there just no need of saying out everything...as long as the girl doesn't know he loved her before, still loving her now..and will will still love her tomorrow....believing his words for every tomorrow...and the other guy doesn't know about the love from he to her....the girl also won't know anything...
              In the end....to him...nothing matters more than the girl's smile...as long as her smile and laughter is real and pure....he will find happiness in everything.....theres nothing more to say about him....other that..he still that guy who love the girl...since 2010 February < 20 > ......and been waiting for her since that time..until he is curious that she have another guy, until she is really with that another guy, until 1 year 7 month of waiting she had finally not be with that another guy anymore...he is appreciate she is still in good health...surviving everyday....normal level of happiness and sadness...he appreciate it....even now..he is not going to get her back...he will still like always...pretending doesn't love her...be with her everyday in the status of Brother...and she really thinks he just wanna be a brother....and care for her in all small matter which other people not really realize....not realize...
              God speed for him in his love path...make sure he stay healthy to love her everyday....In other words...out everything...time go hands down....

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