I Still Love Her

LIKE IT...

I really cannot believe....what am I talking now is 100% private...and she 100% won't know...haiz..I still love her...and I dunno why the feeling is still there...even though i tried to like 2-3 other girl...but i still cannot forget about her...just forgetting her is impossible....she give me the feeling....everytime talking with her I blushed....everytime chatting with her on facebook, my brain freeze...everytime stand by her side...I froze..thats the feeling I get everytime I have something related to her...
Still remember the day she came into the school...ya...erm..is February or March..but is after my birthday....but its on Monday...ya..Monday....Pn Choong walking with a girl...god she is short...and damn cute...CUTE! The next thing I know I blushed...out of nowhere...
SKIPPED.....We are in the library when teacher force us to write something patriotic...people...bla x3...then I offer her a book..which helps her in he work...YEAH!....the feeling is rising....
After some weeks she is in the school...I never heard her talk loud...even teacher asked her question..she answer in a very timid voice....like a baby kitten I can say....but that the way she look that force me not to not protect her...as she is newbie in this school....
Some month passed where the love deepens...and that not even near TODAY....but let me continue the story....she is so near with him...not me..another him...and I dun feel anything wrong...until ergh...(this part i'm not telling anyone) SKIP SKIP SKIP...where the hatred in me grow larger.....and I dunno why..JEALOUSY huh?....
The ME now is not the ME yesterday or any day before today....The tomorrow's ME will also be different from the ME today...but the heart for YOU is still the same whenever it is....THIS PHRASE look useless to me...cause I have to learn how to PUT DOWN and TAKE SOMETHING UP again.....I still in the mist.....still not doing any decision...but I just doesn't want to continue the story or tears will come out soon...so its time to click POST and let someone who care for me to see this...CONFUSED post...

~Rayder~
Signed ~R~
But how also...I still have to continue breath in oxygen and breath out CO2.....so let forget about this and go to school...without leaving behind the mask of lies....#_#